Never let anyone dull your sparkle.
I’ve been dealing with a lot of stress at work. Mostly because I’m not allowed to make a single decision on my own. It’s come to the point where I can’t breathe. I took off a day earlier in the week because that environment was suffocating me. Normally, I’m able to keep my depression at bay. But that day, I lost all control. I didn’t get out of bed for fear of drowning. I was angry and I spent the little energy I had on being angry about my situation. It wasn’t until I started looking for other jobs that I started to have enough energy to physically get out of bed.
Today, I went back to work and the person that’s causing me this stress was not there. I felt like I could breath even for a little bit. Only problem? I’ll have to go to work tomorrow, a Saturday, to once again be micromanaged. Not looking forward to it at all.
But the little breath I had today just may carry me until the end of the year or maybe until March 2018. Then, I can move to another job without it being taboo that I moved before an entire year at the same company.
I just hope I don’t lose my ability to think on my own, make decisions, mistakes, correcting said mistakes before I am able to leave. Here’s to hoping that my little sparkle of hope continues to shine before I’m lost to the world forever.